Last Wednesday I felt the urge from God to fast and pray. At first I wanted to go all big and do it for 21 days on only do like water and some Boost/Ensure in the morning so I can take my meds. By Thursday I started not feeling well. By Friday morning, I had dropped 5lbs. So I adjusted a few things. I lost 10lbs by Monday and had to do some more adjusting. That wasn’t good for my health because when the body needs protein it also takes from muscle too and I didn’t want that to happen. I added a bit more protein to my fasting in liquid form. But I still prayed and prayed and prayed.
God showed me a lot about myself. He showed me how I treat myself, how I view myself. He showed me how there are things in my own life getting in the way of effectively doing ministry here in Corsica. He showed me the beauty of what he is doing here in Corsica. And he moved me to see what he can do here as well.
This morning I had my first cup of coffee in a week. It never tasted so good. I know I need to watch my caloric intake and not to go all hog wild with portions. I noticed that when I did eat small, I still felt full.
I also know that it isn’t always the great huge steps and huge things that show that God is at work. In fact, it’s in those little steps. Those small things each day where God shows you where he is at. He leads us one step at a time into his glory. If it wasn’t for Thursday night, I wouldn’t have realized that I can’t do it all. Instead I needed to humble myself and know that I needed to take it one step at a time.
And that’s how God leads us. One step at a time. If he did it more than that, I’m thinking that we’d all be freaked out beyond our minds comprehension and cerebral matter would have to be scrapped off the walls because our minds would be blown.
I keep thinking of the verse
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path. Psalm 119:105
And so, God leads me, step by step. Moment by moment. Showing me his glory and beauty as I trust in him and follow him along this path.