Weight is something I’ve struggled with all my life. Since I was a kid I’ve been called fat, overweight and, well, some very nasty words as well. I wore size husky in everything. Looking back on those pictures of me as a kid, I wasn’t fat at all. I was big. I was tall and big for my age. People thought I was two or three years older than I really was. One teacher thought I was lying to her when I said I was never held back a grade or three.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been trying to put a dent in my weight. In high school, I looked at going into the Navy. No offense to the Navy or the rest of our armed services, but not the best for one’s sense of self worth when you’re told the only way you’ll ever be accepted in life is to be thinner.
In college, I dropped down to my healthiest weight yet. But according to all the charts, I was still considered obese. Of course, according to the charts, to be what they want me to be I’d have to be skin and bones.
In Seminary, I struggled with a lot of school work, etc and gained way too much weight. In 2004, I started to put a dent into it. By 2010, I’d lost 100lbs (or more. When I was at my heaviest, no one had a scale that would weigh me outside of a zoo.) In December of 2010, I was up 15 pounds. In February, I was up 20. In May, I was up 30 and rising.
I decided it was time to put a dent in it again. Step by step. Minute by minute. And today, I’ve lost 5lbs since I started.
One of the things that’s been helpful for me has been encouragement from friends and family. It’s also been coming back to listening to or reading God’s word. I know, I know, so cliche, but honestly, this blog is called Spiritual Musclehead (or as I like to say, come for the zombies, stay for Jesus).
We’re so fearfully and wonderfully made. Our physical health affects our emotional/mental and spiritual health. Our emotional/mental health affects our spiritual and physical health and our spiritual health does the same.
And so I trudge on. Sometimes I really don’t want to eat that apple. But with zero points for an apple vs a candy bar, well, I’m gonna be stingy and go for that. I don’t always want to take that time to read or to pray but I know it’s needed for my own health and journey. Other times, I so look forward to it all. I so look forward to eating something good and healthy (I know, scary , huh?).
It’s amazing what God can truly do.
What are you doing to keep healthy physically, emotionally and spiritually?