I was so excited to have this great blog post last night. I could see it now. I would talk about how great it was that if finally did it. For the first time since the week before Christmas, I got up early, hit the gym and then got to work and was productive. I was thinking of how great it’d be because I’d also been keeping a log of my workouts–you know, how much I benched, how much I did as a curl or lat pull down. I even had downloaded a calorie counter app for my phone. Then I was going to talk about how I finally got into the groove of reading my Bible and praying and journaling. I downloaded the Youversion Bible app from Lifechurch onto my cellphone so I could read scripture anywhere. It was going to be a great blog post.
Then I hit snooze on my cell phone’s alarm clock this morning at 6am. Well, in my tiredness, I actually hit the “dismiss” button instead. I woke up around 8. I finally hit the gym not out of wanting to be healthy but because of writer’s block. I only breezed through my devotions this morning and only did a short prayer. And that app. Uninstalled it.
So much for the best blog post ever!
I try so hard to make sure that I that read my Bible. And I do an okay job at it. I really do. But I beat myself up when I don’t read it enough. And I beat myself up when I don’t pray enough. And I beat myself up when I don’t journal. And I get frustrated when I don’t go to the gym. My pick up stalled on my wife yesterday. I feel bad because I didn’t do enough to take care of it so it wouldn’t do that (not to mention it was like -15 yesterday…which probably didn’t help). In my life, in my prayer life, in my spiritual life, in my emotional health, physical health and spiritual health, I know I need to not beat myself up.
It’s good to know I’m not the only one. Two blogs that have been helpful as of late. The first being Living a Reckless Faith which I’ve been reading off an on now for a little bit. The other one I recently found Fat Girl Fit world.
In my messiness, I’m not alone. We have each other.
Paul said it best in Galatians 6:2 “Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ”. We’re in it together.
Maybe tonight I’ll finally hang my punching bag and go at that instead…I can beat that up instead of myself.